What am I really searching for in my life? Interesting activities? To meet my obligations to my family annd friends? To make myself into the kind of person I will enjoy living with?
I may not realize all of these ideals, but it’s a joy to work toward them, watching myself grow, little by little.
One good way is to take a really searching inventory and examine my motives. I need to understand why I do what I do, and say what I say. This will help me realize the kind of person I really am, and give me constructive ideas for improving what I don’t like about myself.
It is far easier to be honest with other people than with myself. All of us are hampered to some degree by our need to justify our actionns and words. Admitting my faults, to myself, to God and another human being, as suggested by the Fifth of the Twelve Steps, will give me a glimpse of the wonderful person I could be.
“I will pray for self-fulfillment, and through conscious effort make some headway toward being at peace with myself, which is my ultimate goal, embracing all others.”
Reading From One Day At A Time In Al-Anon, pg. 101
Ask any human being if they know what they want and most will say they do…but to ask them or ourselves what that is, to describe it…that is another story. Healing and recovery give us an opportunity to look at what really is important and what it is to be content and happy.