The world is as it is. We can’t live in a vacuum. We can’t live in a bubble. We still have real life to deal with every day. Sometimes it seems as though we are at the end of our rope. You know that feeling, “‘I’ just can’t do it anymore.” We’ve all been there. Maybe you haven’t been there in 10 years but we all know that we have been there and will be at that moment again. The key in that statement, what should be a big sounding cymbol there is “I”.
That is when we turn to step one. We turn to the Serenity Prayer. We have in that moment of “‘I’ can’t take it anymore,” stopped turning things over to our Higher Power and depended on that one thing, that has caused us so much chaos, our own worst thinking, the Ego.
All of us, myself included, turn to who it can blame when this happens. The Ego, is so arrogant. It thinks anything bad couldn’t possibly have to do with itself, it has to be someone else. It will even try to blame our Higher Power. I know because it has happened to me. And, it will illogically try to take credit for all the good.
Our Higher Power doesn’t make mistakes. And I mean that without prejiduce. Anything our Higher Power created is perfect in its creation, including us, our decision we make with free will and ego on the other hand, not so much this also applies to family ego, community ego or the ego of our countries,
My part, our part, is to undo our own worst thinking. Eastern spiritual traditions talk about “right thinking” they are wise. Regardless of what language one chooses to use, Freud’s, Eastern traditions or MonoTheists it all comes down to the one thing. I use the word Ego here, in my life I use that and another term. It is something changeable, something not so intrinsically tied to us that we can not excape it. It is something we created, thus we can undo it. That is part of our work in the three-fold process of “finding” or recovering ourselves. God has His part, we have ours.
This work is hard. Because the effect of the consequence of Ego’s choices vs. “right” thinking or aligning our will with the God of our Understanding, is guilt. The Ego, pushes away guilt, however our being experiences it. Our spirit and our body, carry it, while ego goes on. Our spirit and body pay the price of Ego, not being able to be wrong. Spirit and body are depleted, through the stress of this divide. The Ego, will, in the attemt to deny guilt, do anything, including numb itself with whatever it can to delude itself. The only test to see where we are is, “Are we at peace?” When we are at peace all is well with our soul, with our spirit and with our mind. The Ego, so sure of itself, will continue to do the same thing over and over because it is so sure that it is right, it will expect different results all the while, blaming the effects of its own actions on others. “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results.” Insanity then, is of the Ego when putting it this way.
Aligning our will with our Higher Power and undoing our own worst thinking can happen in a moment. An instant. Our work with God’s help is to keep putting ourself back on course.
The Ego then because we created it can be undone and destroyed by us. Many will disagree, and the Ego fights for existance in this, but it can be done in an instant. The ego will fight this statement because it means its death, but with our Higher Power’s help it can be done.
Serenity Now, it starts the moment we understand in our being what hinders it.