In all things give thanks. When we can trust our Higher Power that all things if we let them, can be used to our benefit, we see that even our struggles have taught us. When we value our own personal development above being right or wrong, above getting our own way and needing instant gratification we can be grateful even in the struggles and learn to forgive.
Gratitude and forgiveness go hand in hand. It is impossible to hold resentments against something you are grateful for. And in this sometimes, you gotta fake it til you make it. Or, in Al-Anon language, “Act as If”.
My life through the past 5 years has been anything but easy. Small children and a perfect life would have brought it’s fair share of struggles but mine has been no perfect life. The past 5 years no exception. I think back now, how could I have not seen what was coming. But I learned, and I forgive myself for not knowing. Because I learned.
I learned what social drinking is and isn’t. Growing up in a recovery environment, I never knew. So I thank you for that.
I learned what enabling looks like and feels like compared to giving love. I learned what co-dependency feels like I learned that there is a huge difference between being wanted and being needed. So I thank you for that.
I’ve seen what hard work in recovery accomplishes in a family. You’ve made me even more grateful for my family. I thank you for that.
Because I’ve seen the damage this disease inflicts, I can understand more fully the depths to which this disease extends in family’s and how it persists, so that I can do something different. I thank you for that.
Because I’ve seen and felt what love is not, I can recognize love more fully more completely. I thank you for that.
Because I have been conquered I know what it is to be free. I thank you for that.
I thank you for showing me what it is like to live life in servitude to an idol. Because I made you mine and so I know now truly what idolatry is. I know because of this that God, my higher power, always comes first. And because I’ve seen and felt that idols are nothing that God is everything. I thank you for that.
I thank you for finishing the lessons in strength I needed to learn. I have done more than I ever thought I could. I thank you for that.
I thank you for my love of truth. For being okay with not knowing and being wrong. I thank you for everything.
I thank you for pulling me away from my center. Because now I know firmly where the center is.
I could continue for a thousand more words.
I thank you most of all for teaching me that being grateful in all things is one of the most important things in this life. Because it is the gateway to forgiveness.
Many of you I suspect are nodding your heads, some of you I hope are thinking of your own gratitude, some of you I suspect are thinking “how can I be grateful in all I’m going through. ”
There is light on the other side, that shines so brightly that it dries every tear and brings laughter and smiles.
The saddest people I have ever met are those that refuse to entertain forgiveness. The most peaceful people I’ve ever met forgive everyone including themselves. Knowing that forgiveness does not erase boundaries.
There are some things I’m still working on being grateful for, working on seeing the lesson, learning the lesson. And those things I know I will be grateful for, so I’m grateful for that too.
And so it goes…I thank you for that.